Everything as falling apart

Things have been pretty weird lately. i dont know whats going through my mind or what's going on I've been so stressed lately that i cant sleep any more i have probably got about thirty hours of sleep or less than that since Saturday and i'm falling apart and i dont know whats going on and i'm pretty much ready to give up on everything and everyone, But jesus is keeping me in there i mean i feel like S*** right now and i have failed alot because i'm not relying on jesus and i'm beating my self up about it but my god is good, and i have victory over sin and death But i Cant keep living like this Or its going to keep Driving me nuts and I'm probably just going to leave everyone but i need Jesus to speak to me in what i need to do cause i'm going to end up doing something stupid. But any one who reads my blogger/that i know or who every pray for strength for me cause i'm at the end of the rope. so if nothing makes since its cause i'm tired and cant think straight. so peace